Today I looked through a photo album that a friend posted on Facebook from a party a few weeks ago. I hate pictures of me, and I'm always worried that I'm gonna look even worse than usual... that I have a picture in my head of what I look like, but then I'll see a picture of how I actually look and it will be horrible. Especially when it comes to full body shots. I mean, at the right angle, from the shoulders up, I think I look fine, but for a LOOOONG time, I have shuddered every time I've seen a picture of anything more. But for the first time in probably ten years, I saw these pictures of myself today, and while they are still in no way ideal, I didn't want to hide from the world and give up on any weight-loss and fitness goals. I thought, "Hmmm... it's not actually that bad." And now my motivation is just more intense than it was yesterday. I did the stairs at school twice today, and then I decided to ride the exercise bike at the house I'm watching for some vacationing friends.
I may actually soon hit that first goal of weighing what I lied about my weight being on my license 7 years ago! I'm very close, and when I got it, it was a lie of SIXTY pounds!!!